(1991) Ten
Once
I admit
it...what's to say...yeah...
I'll relive
it...without pain...mmm...
Backstreet
lover on the side of the road
I got a
bomb in my temple that is gonna explode
I got a
sixteen gauge buried under my clothes, I play...
Once upon a
time I could control myself
Ooh, once
upon a time I could lose myself, yeah...
Oh, try and
mimic what's insane...ooh, yeah...
I am in
it...where do I stand?
Oh, Indian
summer and I hate the heat
I got a
backstreet lover on the passenger seat
I got my
hand in my pocket, so determined, discreet...I pray...
Once upon a
time I could control myself
Ooh, once
upon a time I could lose myself, yeah, yeah...
You think I
got my eyes closed
But I'm
lookin' at you the whole fuckin' time...
Ooh, once
upon a time I could control myself, yeah...
Once upon a
time I could lose myself, yeah, yeah, yeah...
Once, upon
a time I could love myself, yeah...
Once upon a
time I could love you, yeah, yeah, yeah...
Once [4x]
Yeah...once,
once...yeah, yeah...
Yeah...yeah,
yeah...yeah, yeah...oww...
Even Flow
Freezin',
rests his head on a pillow made of concrete, again
Oh, Feelin'
maybe he'll see a little better, set a days, ooh yeah
Oh, hand
out, faces that he sees time again ain't that familiar, oh yeah
Oh, dark
grin, he can't help, when he's happy looks insane, oh yeah
Even flow,
thoughts arrive like butterflies
Oh, he
don't know, so he chases them away
Someday
yet, he'll begin his life again
Life again,
life again...
Kneelin',
looking through the paper though he doesn't know to read, ooh yeah
Oh, prayin',
now to something that has never showed him anything
Oh,
feelin', understands the weather of the winters on its way
Oh,
ceilings, few and far between all the legal halls of shame, yeah
Even flow,
thoughts arrive like butterflies
Oh, he
don't know, so he chases them away
Someday
yet, he'll begin his life again
Whispering
hands, gently lead him away
Him away,
him away...
Yeah!
Woo...ah
yeah...fuck it up...
Even flow,
thoughts arrive like butterflies
Oh, he
don't know, so he chases them away
Someday yet,
he'll begin his life again, yeah
Oh,
whispering hands, gently lead him away
Him away,
him away...
Yeah!
Woo...uh
huh...yeah, yeah, mommy, mommy...
Alive
Son, she
said, have I got a little story for you
What you
thought was your daddy was nothin' but a...
While you
were sittin' home alone at age thirteen
Your real
daddy was dyin', sorry you didn't see him, but I'm glad we talked...
Oh I, oh,
I'm still alive
Hey, I, I,
oh, I'm still alive
Hey I, oh,
I'm still alive
Hey...oh...
Oh, she
walks slowly, across a young man's room
She said
I'm ready...for you
I can't
remember anything to this very day
'Cept the
look, the look...
Oh, you
know where, now I can't see, I just stare...
I, I'm
still alive
Hey I, but,
I'm still alive
Hey I, boy,
I'm still alive
Hey I, I,
I, I'm still alive, yeah
Ooh
yeah...yeah yeah yeah...oh...oh...
Is
something wrong, she said
Well of
course there is
You're
still alive, she said
Oh, and do
I deserve to be
Is that the
question
And if
so...if so...who answers...who answers...
I, oh, I'm
still alive
Hey I, oh,
I'm still alive
Hey I, but,
I'm still alive
Yeah I,
ooh, I'm still alive
Yeah yeah
yeah yeah yeah yeah
Why Go
she
scratches a letter
into a wall
made of stone
maybe
someday
another
child
won't feel
as alone as she does
it's been
two years
and
counting
since they
put her in this place
she's been
diagnosed
by some
stupid fuck
and mommy
agrees
why go
home?
why go
home?
why go
home...
she seems
to be stronger
but what
they want her to be is weak
she could
just pretend
she could
join the game
she could
be another clone
why go
home?
what you
taught me
put me here
don't come
visit
mommy dear
Black
Hey...
oooh...
Sheets of
empty canvas, untouched sheets of clay
Were laid
spread out before me as her body once did.
All five
horizons revolved around her soul
As the
earth to the sun
Now the air
I tasted and breathed has taken a turn
Ooh, and
all I taught her was everything
Ooh, I know
she gave me all that she wore
And now my
bitter hands chafe beneath the clouds
Of what was
everything.
Oh, the
pictures have all been washed in black, tattooed everything...
I take a
walk outside
I'm
surrounded by some kids at play
I can feel
their laughter, so why do I sear?
Oh, and
twisted thoughts that spin round my head
I'm
spinning, oh, I'm spinning
How quick
the sun can drop away
And now my
bitter hands cradle broken glass
Of what was
everything?
All the
pictures have all been washed in black, tattooed everything...
All the
love gone bad turned my world to black
Tattooed
all I see, all that I am, all I'll be... yeah...
Uh huh...
uh huh... ooh...
I know
someday you'll have a beautiful life,
I know
you'll be a sun in somebody else's sky, but why
Why, why
can't it be, why can't it be mine
Aah...
uuh..
Too doo doo
too, too doo doo [many times until fade]
Jeremy
At home
Drawing
pictures
Of mountain
tops
With him on
top
Lemon
yellow sun
Arms raised
in a V
Dead lay in
pools of maroon below
Daddy
didn't give attention
To the fact
that mommy didn't care
King Jeremy
the wicked
Ruled his
world
Jeremy spoke
in class today
Jeremy
spoke in class today
Clearly I
remember
Pickin' on
the boy
Seemed a
harmless little fuck
But we
unleashed a lion
Gnashed his
teeth
And bit the
recess lady's breast
How could I
forget
He hit me
with a surprise left
My jaw left
hurting
Dropped
wide open
Just like
the day
Like the
day I heard
Daddy
didn't give affection
And the boy
was something that mommy wouldn't wear
King Jeremy
the wicked
Ruled his
world
Jeremy
spoke in class today
Jeremy
spoke in class today
Try to
forget this...
Try to
erase this...
From the
blackboard.
Oceans
hold on to
the thread
the
currents will shift
guide me
towards you
know
something's left
and we're
all allowed to dream
of the next
time we touch..........
you don't
have to stray
two oceans
away
waves roll
in my thoughts
hold tight
the ring...
the sea
will rise...
please
stand by the shore...
I will
be...
I will
be...
there once
more.........
Porch
what the
fuck is this world
running to?
you didn't
leave a message
at least I
could have
heard your
voice one last time.
daily
minefield
this could
be my time
how 'bout
you?
would you
hit me?
would you
hit me?
all the
bills go by
and
initiatives are taken up
by the
middle
there ain't
gonna be any middle any more
and the
cross I'm bearing home
ain't indicative
of my place
left the
porch
left the
porch
hear my
name
take a good
look
this could
be the day
hold my
hand
walk beside
me
I just need
to say...
hear my
name
take a good
look
this could
be the day
hold my
hand
lie beside
me
I just need
to say
what can I
take?
I just want
to be
I know that
i would not ever touch you
hold you
feel you
ever hold
never again
Garden
the
direction of the eye
so
misleading
the
defection of the soul
nauseously
quick
I don't
question
our
existence
I just
question
our modern
needs
I will
walk...with my hands bound
I will
walk...with my face blood
I will
walk...with my shadow flag
into your
garden
garden of
stone
after all
is done
we're still
alone
I won't be
taken
yet I'll
go...
I will
walk...with my hands bound
I will
walk...with my face blood
I will
walk...with my shadow flag
into your
garden
garden of
stone
I don't
show...
I don't
share...
I don't
need
what you
have to give...
Deep
on the edge
windowsill
ponders his
maker
ponders his
will
to the
street below
he just
ain't nothin'
but he's
got a great view...
on the edge
know-nothin'
town
feelin'
quite superior
the aged
come
to the sky
above
he just
ain't nothin'
but he's
got a great view...
on the edge
of a
christmas
clean love
young
virgin from heaven
visiting...
to the man
above her
she just
ain't nothin'...
she doesn't
like the view
doesn't
like the view
doesn't
like the view...
but he
sinks himself deep.
can't touch
the bottom
in too deep
can't touch
the bottom
can't touch
the bottom
in too deep
can't touch
the bottom
can't touch
the bottom
in too deep
can't touch
the bottom
can't touch
the bottom
deep...
Release
I see the
world
Feel the
chill
Which way
to go
Windowsill
I see the
words
On a
rocking horse of time
I see the
birds in the rain
Oh dear dad
Can you see
me now
I am myself
Like you
somehow
I'll ride
the wave
Where it
takes me
I'll hold
the pain
Release me
Oh dear dad
Can you see
me now
I am myself
Like you
somehow
I'll wait
up in the dark
For you to
speak to me
I'll open
up
Release me
Release me
Release me
Release me